May. 28, 2006 - stupid tears

i need to toughen up. yep thats what i need.

  i started crying last night and puds place and i really dont think he knows why. its the stupidest reason really.  i dont blame him if he hates me for being so emotional.anyways the reason i cried is because sometimes i feel l ike our relationship doesnt mean that much to him. its stupid why i thought it tho. it was just because he was planning to run off to the navy (leaving me behind with what seems like not even a little hesitation) but as soon as his sister says she disaproves, he practically forgets the idea. for some reason that hurt. but as much as id like to stop him leaving to do whatever he wants to do, id never stop him. because i want him to be happy. and thats the main thing

 *sigh* even if his happyness meant me being sad. i'd still support him 100% because thats what loves about i guess

Apr. 26, 2006 - note to self

*note to self- DONT WANK PAST BABY GOODS STORE!!*

urgh, my current mood is driving me (and i recon pud aswell) crazy. my mind is full of these absolutly crazy ideas and i just cant seem to get over it all.

  lately ive been in a really motherly mood and actually even concidered wanting a baby!!!! not to mention my dreams about being with pud for like.... years!!! poor him   he's gonna hate me for all this... *sigh* i really need to snap out of this soon before i scare him off

Apr. 22, 2006 - rambling of a lovesick teenager

ive found my prince charming... its just too bad that ill most likly never get my happily ever after.

thats my problem, i dream of that happiliy ever after with him sooo much... so now when it never happens im gonna get hurt a heap more, *sigh* i have to learn to control my emotions a bit better.

   i just cant help it tho... every minute i spend with him is heaven, and when im not with him i miss him SOOO much. pathetic arnt i. sometimes i wonder if he feels the same way about me, a part of me wishes he did (maybe he hides it better than me ), but the rest of me knows he doesnt.. i know he loves me , i just dont think its as extreme as the way i love him though.

  urgh! im such a hopeless romantic when it comes to him. i dream about doing all the serious romantic things with him, like going out to dinner or going on a holiday together. im soooo pathetic.

  but i just cant imagine myself living without him anymore, does that mean im too far gone to ever be saved? should i even feel like this? im only 17. even if i shouldnt feel like this, i love him too much to stop. pathetic arnt i?

Mar. 30, 2006 - funny product warnings (and my replies)

Windex
Do not spray in eyes.  (well that was first on my to do list)

How to store your baby walker: First, remove baby." -

Anonymous Manufacturer         (my god... someone actually tried this)

Mar. 1, 2006 - 22 ways to make a girl smile

1. Tell her she is beautiful or gorgeous(not fine, or sexy)

2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.

3 . Kiss her on the forehead/ neck.

4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.

6 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

7 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.

8 . Write her notes. (she loves them)

9 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10 . Play with her hair.

11 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.

12 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.

13 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.

14 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16 . Give her piggyback rides.

17 . Bring her flowers

18 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.

19 . Look her in the eyes and smile.

20 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.

21 . Kiss her in the rain.

22 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.

Feb. 9, 2006 - the veronica's- i could get used to this

You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this

You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this

Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this

You kiss me listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

If there's a dark side to you I haven't seen it
Every good thing you do feels like you mean it

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this

You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
And I could get used to this

this song reminds me of pud :D its soooo sweet. im gonna miss u baby, have fun in hobart

Feb. 6, 2006 - jokes ahoy I LOVE PUD

Of course it's always the last place you look...why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it??

you are soo stupid that when someone told you to get a life.. you went and looked on e-bay

Why did everyone like the mushroom? - 'Cause he was a fun-gi! (please tell me someone gets this joke)

So there's two blondes in Texas having a discussion. One goes to the other: "Which do you think is farther? Florida or the Moon?" The other replys with "Helllooo?? Can you see Florida???!!"

There are 2 muffins in an oven, One muffin says, "man is it hot in here!!" and the other muffin says, "HOLY CRAP A TALKING MUFFIN!!"

i dream of a better tomorrow...where chickens can cross the road and not be questioned about there motives.

Why Did The Blonde Put An Empty Milk Carton In The Fridge?.......In Case Anyone Wanted Black Tea!!!

why did micky mouse get shot???? because donald ducked

An aussie guy is like a wombat.... he eats roots and leaves

I used to have a handle on life...but it broke off.

a pirate walks into a bar....the bartender says sir do u no that u have a steering wheel attached to ur pants...the pirate says....arrrrr i no its driven me nuts

A-D-D its eazy as 1-2- whoa theres a bird!!

i have a very big responsibility around here. everytime something goes wrong im responsible

Two guys are working for the city. One digs wholes the other fills them up. A man watching them cant understand what they are doin. Finally, he says, " I see how hard u guys are working, but i'm confused: One of u digs a hole but then ur partner just fills it up again!" The hole digger says, " Yeah, the guy who plants the trees was sick today."

Feb. 5, 2006 - to infinity and beyond

brrr...... so cold.... wish my baby was here to hug me and keep me warm :( but its all good, i might be spending the next 3 nights hugging him :) how cool is that :D

  soooooo thirsty, i could drink about 8 litres of water.... but then id spend the whole night in the toilet so ill settle for a small bottle :P

   this morning i sat down and watched mary-kate and ashley movuies....how sad am i.... but the highlight of the day wasnt seeing MK and A get with their perfect guys in the movies...but seeing my perfect guy in real life.... i got to spend an hour or so with him before work *sigh* i love being with him.....

  speaking of work..... i just finished.... yay for me! heres this weeks roster:  TUES- 3 to 9  THURS- 4 to 10  FRI- 4 to 10  SAT- 4 to 10  SUN- 10 to 6.... thats alot of work!!!! my ever-soi-sexy boyfriend goes away on the friday :( im gonna miss him soooo much! well.... i miss him even when he's at his house and im at mine so im gonna miss him a whole lot more seeing as he will be like a 4 hour drive away for god knows how long....

   i go back to school on the 15th of this month, and then i go for my provisional drivers licence on the 21st.... wish me luck

   damn im so out of it today..... my body doesn not wanna function and my head feels like cotton wool *cries* i miss my baby :(

Jan. 29, 2006 - random love quotes.....

Love isn't about finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly

I love it when you hold my hand, it lets me know that this is right, it takes away my fears because it lets me know you're here.

You know you're in love when you see that someone and your heart flutters, you're stomach gets butterflies, and the rest of the world disappears

You don't marry someone because you can live with them, you marry them because you can't live without them

Im not askin for forever.......Im just askin for a chance.....

Unforgettable days spent together Swinging on swings, and tickling each other... Times you remember and laugh about when yor bored.... Sitting, talking, holding eachother, never wanting to let go..... Stupid little arguments about who loves who more..... The times you adore Everyday, your love growing stronger and stronger .....You never want the feeling to end ....That is what I call true Love that will never end

All I want is for him to say "Yeah she's my girl!

I love the sun for days, the moon for nights, and you forever

Someday... Someday I will fall asleep with you holding me in your arms, dream of our lives together, and wake up to you kissing me on the forehead before you get in the shower for work! Someday

7 months today for me and my baby *kisses* i love him more than anything and i hope he realises that

Jan. 25, 2006 - 3 doors down- right where i belong

theres a difference than spending time with me
And killing time while I'm there
Too many people and too many things
And it makes me feel like hell
You have gone as I can see
And all of this she says to me

[Chorus]
Theres too many questions
And too many strings
And they won't keep this thing tied
On a roller coaster ride
It Feels like im lying next to a ghost at night

I dont know why I gave you my heart
Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But despite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

I know I get a little bit crazy
But I never done you no wrong
Well I get distracted and carried away
And it's been this way too long

But I dont know what you need from me
Cause all I know is what I can see

[Chorus]

I dont know why I gave you my heart
Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But despite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

Im right where I belong
Go on, Play it for me Son

[Chorus]

I dont know why I gave you my heart
Cause sometimes it feels so wrong
But despite of all this weather
I know why we are together
And I swear right now
I'm right where I belong

Jan. 16, 2006 - love

i am in love...head over heels in love.... i have been sinse i met him but now its just gotten to that point.... the point where when he's not around its like a part of me is missing too...... yep.... im in love.

  he does the sweetest things sometimes and probably doesnt even realise how special it makes me feel..... the things arnt even really that special..... but they are for me.... just when he kisses me on the forehead...or looks at me with the look he gets in his eyes sometimes........ it makes me melt inside..... or when he tells me how cute i am...... just little things like that..... how he holds my hand or brushes my hair out of my eyes..... *sigh* ..... pathtic arnt i?

  i wish i cold find the words to tell him how much i love him....but theres no words strong enough...... theres nowhere id rather be than in his arms.......

   i love pud!!!!!!!!!!!

Jan. 14, 2006 - first entry of a new blog

well its just past midnight and me being my random self decided to start a new blog before i go to bed. so here it is, my very own (non msn) blog for people to read (or not..... i couldnt care less) if i get time (and if i remember) i will probably add a new entry every few days. so yeah......

  maybe i should say something about myself...... here goes nothing.....

   im me..... theres no simpler way to put it.... im a  hyperactive 17 year old girl. i work at our local woolworths supermarket in the deli (the place you get sliced meats and such in case u didnt know), i have a great boyfriend who i love to bits and i never go anywhere without my phone (typical teenage girl trait :P ) i am extremely sarcastic (so get used to it) and i have an obsessive nail biting addiction. my sanity is my music... its my way to escape everything, if i need to get away i grab my ipod and headphones and crank the volume up all the way. it calms me down so yeah.... oh and my blog  is my way to release all the strange and random things going through my head so expects some random entries soon..... yeah well.... dunno what else to say so im off to bed, i have work in less that 11 hours :P

   nighty night ppl