Apr. 22, 2006 - rambling of a lovesick teenager

ive found my prince charming... its just too bad that ill most likly never get my happily ever after.

thats my problem, i dream of that happiliy ever after with him sooo much... so now when it never happens im gonna get hurt a heap more, *sigh* i have to learn to control my emotions a bit better.

   i just cant help it tho... every minute i spend with him is heaven, and when im not with him i miss him SOOO much. pathetic arnt i. sometimes i wonder if he feels the same way about me, a part of me wishes he did (maybe he hides it better than me ), but the rest of me knows he doesnt.. i know he loves me , i just dont think its as extreme as the way i love him though.

  urgh! im such a hopeless romantic when it comes to him. i dream about doing all the serious romantic things with him, like going out to dinner or going on a holiday together. im soooo pathetic.

  but i just cant imagine myself living without him anymore, does that mean im too far gone to ever be saved? should i even feel like this? im only 17. even if i shouldnt feel like this, i love him too much to stop. pathetic arnt i?